IT'S OK NOT TO BE OK

November 12, 2018

This is a post I have been thinking about doing for the longest time but have never felt confident enough to post or got round to doing it. I think when people see my life on Instagram, they think it's perfect, however those who know me outside of the squares will know this is far from the case. Just like everyone I have my good and bad days and I suffer from several mental health problems which have a huge impact on my day to day life. This is something I talk about to very few people, only my close friends and family, but I have decided it's time to share it with the world, because I feel mental health problems need to be normalised and there shouldn't be a huge stigma around the subject.

I am someone who suffers from Depression and Anxiety, which completely effects my day to day life. It can vary from being anxious about doing something, to not wanting to leave the house for days on end because I'm feeling so down. It effects all aspects of my life including; University, Work and Relationships. I find the hardest part is probably explaining to people, as they often just think I'm lazy and can't be bothered. I understand where this opinion comes from as I think unless you've experienced mental health problems yourself it can be hard to understand. I also find it hard to stick to plans or commitments and often have to let people down due to my anxiety taking over.

I have honestly been feeling really demotivated to post any blog posts or Instagram content for around the last month as I have been struggling with my mental health. I think sometimes I just need to tell myself that my health is more important and other things can take a back seat until I feel myself again. I think there is a lot of pressure, especially within the 'blogging world' to upkeep a certain image all the time and this is part of what's made me want to post this. At the end of the day your health is the most important thing and I'm not going to put on a fake smile and a glam outfit just to try and impress people or get a few likes.

Honestly if anyone is reading this and feels the same way I would encourage you to reach out and talk to somebody, a friend or a family member. I am really lucky to have a huge support network around me who I can talk to about what I'm going through and help me to manage it. Talking is the one thing that helps me, as sometimes things can seem a lot worse in your head than what they really are and talking things through can rationalise them.

Thank you for reading 

Hannah x

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